i kind of hate writing here recently (writing in general) but i will force myself to anyways, ive been extremely lazy with everything EVER ...................

heelp i have so many problems and in this case it has something to do with memory, i was going to write a paragraph here about something but i completely forgot it.... instead of whatever that was i am not sure what else to talk about for this paragraph

i really want to reread subahibi after 2 years and having not understood ANYTHING i really need to reread it but i keep drawing fanart of the characters especially ayana anyways lolll theyre just really really fun to draw really. i also want to cosplay ayana so bad but i need to lose weight first jhelp

i went to the new england aquarium recently and saw this cool octopus its awesome.

black souls' gradual popularity scares meeee i played both the games back in january (5 months ago) and they are my favorite rpgmaker game series ever but its gradually getting attention from those egirl people (such as the fake visual novel fans who like subahibi/saya no uta/totono just for the aesthetic and/or to be quirky or edgy), "normal people" who denounce everything about the game either just because its eroge or just because its VERY fucked up/"problematic", and etc... my main fear is it becoming viral on tiktok or elsewhere and toro (the creator) gets harrassed :( i honestly hate that stuff cant be niche anymore without stupid ass people eventually ruining it