it may seem strange to some but i am actually a very lonely person..... i don't like 90% of people that exist so maybe that's a factor but it is also very hard to go out in the world because i am terrified of everything.......... i haven't befriended any very new people (except for like..one person? kind of..) in over a year at this point because i am so secluded. i barely have any irl friends too, and my only real irl friend that i see at school is extremely dull and usually doesn't want to talk to me, sleeps in class, etc. it makes me very sad because we both like touhou and i try to encourage them to get into my favorite things but they don't want to. i wish i had more friends, but i can't connect with many people at all besides the people i already know. everyone i either hate or would hate me, because of how offputting i am... i haven't unprivated the twitter account i talk on in over a year for various reasons (such as 1. scary 2. scary 3. if one of my tweets get quote retweeted i start freaking out majorly and ripping off my skin etc.) its very sad. honestly in general please don't approach me to try to be friends if i don't approach you first (such as following you or interacting in general) otherwise ill get really scared... im moderately autistic so life is very hard for me