two blog posts in the same month!???! wtf.. but anyways i have been struggling with paranoia way too much recently....! its craazy how often i start wanting to run away from everything whenever i build a presence ANYWHERE public .... i abandoned my old neocities because i got paranoid of all the eyes(lol) i had on me and i had around 25 followers then, but now i have 61 on here....brrrrrrrruuuuujjhhhhhh its such a problem i hate being percieved way too much im legit traumatized and very mentally ill/autism so guhhhhh guhhhh guhh. i have deactivated my public twitter art accounts twice now and theyre deleted forever.. i hate hate hate being known im trying to deal by being like Yeah idont CARE what strangers think of me but its still terrifying to think about maybe i should remov ethat from my index page possibly . tldr if this website is suddenly wiped DO NOT look for me please, unless i know you personally
8/30/24 update: i dont really mind if you still decide to follow me or interact with me after i post this, the anxiety fluctuates a LOT so most days im relatively okay but other days....